Ode to a Broken Record...

I'm too dark
To be blushing
Like this
You started it
When you decided
To take the plunge
And explore
Now
My cheeks are forming
Into the likeness
Of the rose
You sent me
The other day
Just you're way
Of saying "hey"
I notice
The smile
You wear
As you watch me
Glowing
The tidal wave
Inside is rising
To your
Steady rhythm
Every bit of me
Is reaching
Full epitome
As you hit
Those spots...
Tis true
My reaction
Is norming
Taking me back
Back
To the "us"
That used to be
And
At this point
The heat between us
Is causing an inferno
And the uprising
Is segwaying
The uproar
Oh
Remember
How your body
Used to be my
Old stomping grounds
Back then we were
So young
Dumb
Passing off lust
For being in love
Look at us
Trying to
Rekindle an old flame
That has died
And gone onto hell
Look at us
We must be shameful
We do this every time
Must be the way
That old dog
Always could catch
A kitty
Make her purr
But
Could never
Keep her
And when
That day comes
That some
Fiesty feline
Should finally
Give in
To curiosity
And look to
Satisfy herself
Wholeheartedly
In your love
I want to meet her
Because
We both know
Baby she sho ain't me

Free Write

Emotions

Running

Deeper, deeper

I need you

I feel you

Deeper, deeper

Endless possibilities

A private party

You and me

You touch me

In an instant

I grow weaker

I want this…

Let’s make

Good love

Like

When we make

Good music

Accompanied by an

Overpowering resonance

Cathedral setting

To illuminate

That feeling of

Heaven sent

Because

That is exactly

Where we went

And

It’s what I want

From you

And

For us

Let’s go again…

I went melisma

In staccato

You went in deeper

I hit vibrato

My somber cry

Climaxed legato

And graciously

My body became

An unchained melody

To your

Untamed memory

And

As we come to a close

I’m feeling like

An incomplete cadence…

Lace me

With your finishing touches

And

Sustain me

Until we meet again…

Free Write Yesterday...

I’m angry
And with every moment that passes
I’m finding myself screaming out
In dismay
Hoping it reaches out
To the ear of the masses
All because of you
So no matter how hard you try
Using and abusing the smoothness
Of the limited vocabulary you possess
As soothing as you aim be
You can’t tame me
Trying to use your kisses to sedate me
And form a treaty with my counterparts
So it won’t look like a plot to rape me
Move on with your bs
Because
The only success you will have tonight
Will be at what level can you exceed to fully
Irate me
No! Don’t you dare!
Don’t even attempt to wrap your arms around
This cold, stony heart of mine
This is not the time
I’m not the one
And this truly isn’t the place
So I advise you to get up out of my face
And go find yourself a new location to dwell
Because I need some space
Giving side eyes to the 6 o'clock news
Bewildered at the weatherman
Who is clouding my judgment
It's not his fault
For even he couldn't predict
That flood that unknowingly
Infiltrated the paradise
That was my heart
I wish I would have prepared
For this rainy day
Talk about a natural disaster
All because of you
So just leave my key
See yourself out the door
To you this is my only given grace
And before you leave
The next time
You attempt to lead a double life
While the next one devotes all of herself
To being the perfect wannabe “wife”
Try not to leave a trace.

Inspiration While At YLI :)

He was my Adonis

And I

His Athena

The work of art

That was his love

Was abstract

See

I likes that

And

All it took was

Just one look

Just one look

And my soul agreed

That he was the one

For me

I believed

Now

Now was the time

To release all

Of my inhibitions

And

Post pone my insecurities

In an attempt to

Cordially invite him

To permanently reside

In my majesty

And change the game

That was me mentally

We're on the verge of newness in love

All the while

The Greeks have gone mad!

But

We just don't care

See it's like

You have me in this trance

It's possible

That what's developing between us

Isn't mere happenstance

Infinite conversation

Intimate

Intense

And insatiable

Without ever being sexual

Though there times our paths crossed physical

We got it together and practiced self-control

Oh the ways we will grow

Loving this feeling of

Losing control

Tis true

The Greeks have gone mad!

But

We just don't care

Because

Adonis

My man

My friend

Strong man

With a newborn's smile

Unfabricated features

Detailing

His rugged story

With a hint of

Hope

Promise

Purpose

And prestige

See

That's just his style

And

I likes that

So

All that I ask

Is that he

Come and hang with me

For just a little while

Maybe even forever

Let the Greeks stay mad

Because

This love

Is the life

This life broke the mold

What keeps us united

Is the lovely lyrical stronghold

So I'm gonna let him

Love me

right down

to the core

of my soul

While the Greeks go mad!

Just A Free Write 4-11-11

Daydreaming

About a life

Less ordinary

Because

Whatever I'm living

Doesn't seem to be

Hitting it right

Ya know?

So

I close my eyes

And see deep until

I begin to

Chase the clouds

And It is there

I dream

And soon

You appear.

It's really you

Hmmm

I recall your scent

So full and alive

Exciting every sensory

I possess

That lay dormant

In disguise.

I shy away

As I begin

To remember you

Let me be honest

With you

Avec moi

I never forgot

I hold on tight

To those memories

Like

Your kiss

Upon my lovely bones

Bidding me that

Farewell

That was never

Goodbye forever

Yet

Your disappearing act

Said it all.

I remember you

All of you

The effortless way

You bring along

Nothing more

Than a predictable

Element of surprise

Leaving me

Desolate

Disappointed

Unfulfilled

And still

Wanting more...

Why do I even bother

Thinking about you

When the rolling stone

That was once my heart

Desperately creates these

Fabricated sweet dreams

To shield

The reality

of these

Sour times

Whenever

You whirl back

Into my life

Like the wind

Then desert me

Dry and high

My mind intoxicated

By the inconsistency

Of your consistent lies

And then only way

To prove you are

The culprit

Is to trace my

Tear lines

Where you left me behind...

Why do I waste

My dreaming

On you?

Oh foolish girl

Snap back

Into reality.

Inspiration By David Ramsey Jr.

Your music

When it hits me

Is like

A breath of fresh air

Crisp

Like winter's kiss

Lovely

Like morning's arising

Warm

Emulating summer's eve

Just for me

And in return

I'm all yours

Melodies

That find their way

Underneath it all

And as you near me

My heart beats triplets

Your sound

Arose the once dormant laid

Writer within me

Lazarus has come forth

And now

It's time to finish

What was already established

In me

Thank you

For your movement

Many thanks

For your move on me.

Free write some day ago...

Hard to believe

What once was a shattered heart

Is now

A mosaic of wonder

See

I’ve been reconstructed

And made better than before

This diamond in the rough

Is finally getting her shine

Though it took much time

But

You would agree that the finish product

Was worth the wait

Alas, here I stand

Abstract

Complex

Accentedd with

Fathomless beauty

Tickling your fancy

For just a moment

It’s really all I need

Marvel at my grandeur

And

Journey with me

Place your hands upon my build

Feel upon my mold

Interpret my weakness

Wrap your imagination

Around my strength

Call me beautiful

Call me a masterpiece

See me as priceless

And timeless

Allowing me the honor

To put you in a state of serenity

As you gaze upon my piercing eyes

Looking at me now

It’s hard to believe

I was at one time

Just a pile of confusion

Then one day

Love poured herself

Out of the sun

and into my creation

The brokenness

Now serve as pillars

Holding my head high

My time is now

Look at me

There is a change

This change

Exuberates

Pain turned perseverance

Captured in stillness

Raptured

In eloquence

But please

Do not be fooled

By what you see

For I am merely

A work in progress

And at any time

I can fall

For the

Nice eyes

Drop dead smile

Landing me into

The wrong hands

Only to be swept back

Into that pile

Of nothingness

Over in the corner

Until damage control

Arrives again…

Take a picture

It lasts longer...

just a titch of inspiration I guess...

journeying alongside

my shadow

I noticed something

something

that made my stride stop

tempted my eyes

to drop

as I gazed upon

a small pile of

flower petals

fellowshipping by the

school of detox

that housed

the legendary streets of hardknocks

moments were passing

and in instant

I embarked

on a new mystery

me thinks

me thinks

someone was falling in love

or

the thought ran across the mind

I wanted to walk away

but

a tug in my heart wouldn't let me

so now the investigation begins...

was it the petal that laid

so gracefully at the top

that held the final decision

or is it the one

you know that one

buried beneath the surface

as if holding onto the matter

of the heart

like the greatest untold secret

what was the answer

"he loves me"

"she loves me not"

maybe this was just a way

a way

to leave one's mark

just to say

I was here

you never knew me

and

may never come to know me

but you will know

I was here

and now I know

that these petals

serve more than

just a coincidental purpose

i suppose

like the concreted heart

that birthed out a rose

and just when

I thought there was

more to covey

the wind swept you all away

I guess it was

the motivation needed

to carry on with my day

so with that

I took a deep breath in

sigh...

sad face...

it seems I will never

come to know the truth

so I will pack up

my curiosity

and try to make up

for wasting time...