never been a fan of black wine
but your mind tastes so divine
i wanna sip your secrets
and unfold a piece you
that lingers behind closed doors
unseen to outside eyes
but it's me
you take in cordially
and although
the bottle is 3/4 a memory
no effect becomes me
your revelation soothes my tastebuds
and sobers my emotions
in a state never reached before
in this way
what's wrong with you
what's wrong with me
what's right about this?
i know
it's getting late
it's getting too late
in the game for my heart
to endure the same
as i have before
i now understand
what that did to me
and i don't want it anymore
why you gotta be here?
why you gotta be here
what is drawing you to me
what is drawing me to this
beside me
beside me is a box
a box
where my heart is
because
i feel
wearing it on my sleeve
would bear too much of me
and soon
everyone would just walk away
like the events that happened
on yesterday
and
it isn't strong enough
to take on the low blows
brought on by the traps
of woes i set for myself
in the past
thinking if i pursued more
the something i want to happen
will and actually last
but my tears leave unwanted scars
so i wear this mask
hoping that someone
would glance
and change the channel
but
the world is watching
everyone is watching
watching
needing
wanting me
but i'm afraid
afraid that some days
i will never allow myself
the chance
the chance to just stop
and take the fresh breath of air
graced to me everyday
by my Heavenly Father
and just fizzle at the flame
when He should be my #1 desire
putting my full trust in Him
and allowing His word
to take me higher
but i'm afraid
and He says "don't be"
i'm afraid he may hurt me
He says
"he's from me"
that should give me peace
but
i'm as uneasy as pond
invaded by the pebble stone
i long for day he finds his favor
within me
but for some reason
i feel sad
yet safer
alone
and to give all of me
without the peace
of knowing if he is for me
will only further
take me out of my
zone
so
i sip the last of what you got
with caution
because i do want more
but what is it i deserve
they say
a heart like mine
is hard to find
these days
i guess that
means
i need to bury it
a bit in Him
so
when you're ready
for the challenge
you will seek His face
and in turn
search for me
leave the message
in the bottle
i know there's still
something inside
i just wanna take in
the last you have to say
before i give myself
again...
