COLLABO PIECE #1

There is this guy of who I have been friends with for a few years now and he is an awesome poet as well. His name is Christopher Cole and from time to time we should share our poetry with each other and either he or I would randomly send an email or text with something and look for the other to add to it...this piece is the result of one of those moments lol...Enjoy :)

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Freer than the rainbow

That lucks my soul

After the storm

More fulfillment than

The smell of rain

Pouring into my being

Adding to my whole

There my heart finds

Warmth within the

Folds of the pot of gold

The riches only the unwealthy can appreciate

Duplicate the change through time

From the depths of dusk

To the glowing sun shine

I smile because I feel complete

There's no better feeling...

Sharing in the like minds

Of the unmaterialistic

And finding security

In life's lessons and comfort

Nature's authority

Upholds integrity like a bed of roses

The organic smell manufactured

But man didn't factor in that originality

Of individuality

In its simplicity

Possesses the power to maintain our complexity

Complexity

Where beauty always takes form

Away from the norms of everyday life

This being is a free-spirited element

Only requirement is to feel

And be allowed liberty to simply be

Quickly flee

From the captivity

Of the politically correct

Purposefully long

To be purposely wrong

As long as it feels like the right

Direction

With constant inspection

For personal inflection of voice

My voice allows wrong to be right

Makes the piercing into the new day

Feel like a sleepless night

Allows my weakest link

To conquer in might

In spite

Of what I have been made to believe

Because what I see

Is a new in me

See

I shape perspective

With the touch of my words

My microphone is my life

My stand is my foundation

My amp rocks the world

A thousand times before i even speak

Piercing past the miles

Into infinity

This is me

Listen up

As I sing to you.

FREE WRITE #3

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THERE'S A PATH OF SIMPLICITY I'M SEARCHING FOR
BUT TO GET THERE I HAVE TO OVERCOME THIS COMPLEX ANXIETY
OF BEING TOO NERVOUS TO NOTICE WHEN MY BOLDNESS COMES FORTH
SO I'M STUCK IN CONFUSION
WHILE CLARITY IS WHISPERING IN MY EAR
ENCOURAGING ME NOT TO SILENCE MY SPEECH
BUT I'M A REBEL
IN SEARCH OF A CAUSE
SO I CHOKE ON MY OWN ARROGANCE
ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M WRONG
AND MAKE WASTE OF ALOTTED TIME
BECAUSE I'D RATHER REMAIN A SOUL LOST
THAN SEEK OUT HELP FROM ANOTHER
AND LIKE THE SOCIAL BUTTERFLY
I PUT ON THE MASK OF THE LONE RANGER
BECAUSE SOME DAYS I JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE DEALING
AND WHEN I DO DECIDE TO
SOMEONE TELLS ME I'M DEALING WRONG
AND I'M BACK TO ME
SO THIS OVERLAPPING BATTLE OF COMPARISON BETWEEN ME, MYSELF, AND I
IS CAUSING ME TO THINK THAT I'M LACKING IN SOMETHING
DIRECTION
I LOOKED TO MY OWN CONSCIOUSNESS FOR PROTECTION
AND ENDED UP A CAPTIVE TO WAYWARD THOUGHTS
NOW THE CHAINS ARE BECOMING ALL TOO FAMILIAR
AND IT SHOWS I HAVE DEFINITELY BEEN HERE BEFORE TOO MANY TIMES
YEP
SO THIS SIMPLE PATH
REALLY ONLY REQUIRES A SIMPLE MIND
BUT MY DUMB DESIRE TO ENGAGE IN MY DEEPNESS
MAKES IT HARD TO FIND
SO I FIGURED I'D JUST SIT ON ROCK OF PAST REGRETS
PITYING OVER MY SHOULDA, COULDA, WOULDAS
IN HOPES OF A RIGHT WAY TAPPING ME ON THE SHOULDER
AND SHOWING ME HOW TO LOOSEN MYSELF
FROM THE ENTRAPMENT OF MYSELF
THAT RESULTED FROM ME NOT TRUSTING MYSELF
WHEN THE IRONY IS
I TRUSTED NO ONE BUT MYSELF
AND IT'S BECAUSE OF MYSELF THAT I CAN'T FIND THE PATH
AND NOW I CAN'T STAND MYSELF
MAYBE I WILL JUST FIND A ROAD LESS TRAVEL

FREE WRITE #2

I love it when a friend can help me dissect my own work...after going over this piece a million times and finally just sitting down and dissecting it with the fabulous Ms. Sasha Brown, this poem revealed more about myself than I could imagine, almost like it was preparing me for a season I was entering into...LOVE THOSE MOMENTS!!! Enjoy :)

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ENTRAPPED IN AN INSATIABLE MOMENT
CARE TO JOIN ME
LET'S TOAST TO NEVER BEING FREE AGAIN
REFLECT ON WHAT LIFE WAS LIKE
WHEN WE HAD THE POWER TO CHOOSE
AND WHERE THAT LEFT US
SO EXTEND YOUR ARM TO THE FUTURE
NOW DRINK UP
AND MAKE SURE YOU GRAB YOUR EXTRA SET OF CHAINS
THIS IS GOING TO BE AN EXPERIENCE
NOW RELEASE
FEEL THAT
THAT PULL BETWEEN TRUSTING
BUT NOT KNOWING
AND ACTING OUT IN NONCHALANCE
SIMPLY NOT CARING
HOW DOES THAT FEEL
TAKE NOT BACK THIS MOMENT
AND DARE NOT TO RELIVE IT
WHY
BECAUSE THE PAST IS STARTING TO SOUND LIKE A BROKEN RECORD
AND I'M IN SEARCH OF A NEW MELODY
SO HARMONIOUS
THAT AN EXPLANATION WOULD SERVE AS A SIGN OF DISRESPECT
SO LET'S MAKE IT
YES
YOU AND I
JUST LIKE WE PLANNED YESTERDAY
THE TIME IS NOW
RIGHT NOW
IS ANXIETY SEEPING THROUGH YOUR VEINS
TROUBLE NOT YOUR HEART
THERE IS NOTHING TO FEAR
I PROMISE
CROSS MY HEART AND HOPE TO LOVE YOU
LIKE THE UNIVERSE HAS BEEN RECREATED
HERE
HOLD TIGHT OF MY HAND
WE CAN RUN INTO THIS TOGETHER
AND WHEN WE FINALLY ARRIVE
WE CAN SETTLE OURSELVES AT THE EDGE OF THE MOON
I WILL SERENADE YOU INTO A DREAM-LIKE REALITY
AND WHEN YOU HAVE ARRIVED
THERE I WILL MEET YOU
HOW DOES THAT SOUND
WE WILL PAST THE TIME
IN EACH OTHERS ARMS
AND SLEEP ON A HAMMOCK OF MUSIC NOTES
FEELING OUR HEARTBEATS ON ONE ACCORD
NOW HOW DOES THAT FEEL
NICE RIGHT
SO ARE YOU UP FOR THE CHALLENGE
MY LOVE

QUICK PLAY ON WORDS...

THOUGHTS OF YESTERDAY
SPORADIC
PONDERING WHICH WAY TO FEEL
ERRATIC
LOST IN YOUR WORDS
FANATIC
FANATICALLY
YOU ARE MY SHINING STAR
AND I HOPE YOU NEVER GO AWAY
MAGNETICALLY
DRAWN TO BE WHEREVER YOU ARE
AND GIVE YOU A REASON TO STAY
BUT YOU'RE GONE
I STILL SEE YOU
ILLUSION
THAT KISS WITH YOUR SCENT
RESONATING FROM MY CHEEK
FOLLOWED BY A DISAPPEARING ACT
CONFUSION
HOPING YOU CAN FEEL MY VIBES IN THE WIND
AND FIND YOUR WAY BACK TO ME
MELODIC FUSION
STILL TODAY
I FIND MYSELF WALKING IN MY CLOUD OF DREAMS
MAKING SENSE OF WHAT WE ARE
DILIGENCE
OVERCOMING THE THOUGHT OF THIS NOT BEING
RESILIENCE
KNOWING THAT I HAVE BEEN ALLOTTED ONE MORE DAY
ANTICIPATION
AWAITING TO FEEL YOUR HEART AGAIN
SENSATION
AND BEGIN AGAIN SOMETHING ANEW
CREATION

POEM #10

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HAVE YOU EVER SET SAIL ON SUMMER RAIN?
WELL I HAVE
AND I BROUGHT ALONG MY JOURNAL
AND A NET TO CATCH THE THOUGHTS THAT ESCAPE MY PEN
SO I COULD COLLECTIVELY GET MYSELF IN LINE
FOR WHEN I HAD TO TELL YOU MY TRUE FEELINGS
AND LIKE THE SEASONS
A CHANGE OCCURRED
I LEAPED FROM MY JUNK BOAT OF DREAMS
AND DECIDED TO FLOAT ACROSS THE LEAVES AS THEY CHANGED COLOR
AND WHILE STILL WRITING
I INHALED THE CRISP AIR AND THE SNOWFLAKES DANCED AROUND ME
AND PLANTED THE SEEDS OF WILDFLOWERS ALONG THE RIVERBANK
SO I CLOSED MY EYES AND IMITATED BEETHOVEN
HEARING WITHOUT THE KEEN SENSE OF HEARING
BUT RATHER WRITING A MASTERPIECE WITH MY HEART
THAT EVEN MY THOUGHTS COULDN'T COMPREHEND
IN MY JOURNAL ARE THE PERFECT PHRASES
BUT I WONDER WHAT THEY ARE REALLY SAYING IN MY UNCONSCIOUS
SO LIKE A DARING SOUL I DECIDED EXPLORE
AND FOUND THE TRUTH BEHIND MY FEELINGS
AND IN MY MOMENT OF A FREUDIAN SLIP
MY TRUE FEELINGS ESCAPED ME
AND MY NET WAS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND
DARN
AND THERE YOU WERE ACROSS FROM ME IN MY BOAT
AND RECEIVED EVERY WORD WITH A SILENT SMILE
PLANTING A KISS ON MY FOREHEAD
GRACING MY HAND WITH A NOTE OF THANKS
FOR MY HEART WRITING YOUR EXISTENCE IN THIS TIME
TO SHARE WITH THIS BEAUTIFUL MOMENT
YOU'RE WELCOME

POEM #8

THE NATURE OF MY SIMPLE OBSESSION IS FAR FROM THE IRRATIONAL IMMUNITY OF KNOWING I CAN MAKE YOU MINE AT THE BLINK OF AN EYE
MAYBE IT'S THE THOUGHT OF FAIR GAME
OR THE FEELING THAT YOU JUST WILL ONE DAY DISCOVER THE SECRET BEHIND MY DEVICES AND DECIDE NOT TO LET ME HAVE YOU
THAT MAKES ME GO DEEPER
YOUR VOICE MAKES ME WEAKER
AND I SINK INTO AN ABYSS OF EMOTION THAT I HAVE ALLOWED YOU TO CREATE FOR ME
YOUR ACTIONS WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER FEEL LIKE FRESH STRIPPED LACE ACROSS THE FACE OF MY LIPS
AND I BEGIN TO LET MY GUARD DOWN
AND WRAP YOU INTO ME
I'M LOSING FOCUS
THE BALL IS SUPPOSED TO BE IN MY COURT
AND SO IT BEGINS
I'M ELATED BY YOUR SMILE
I'M FADED BY YOUR TOUCH
AND YOUR KISS SENDS MY VERTEBRAE INTO A LOCOMOTION OF AN UNCHAINED MELODY
BUT I MUST REMAIN DOMINANT
I CAN'T LET YOU SEE MY TRUE FEELINGS
CUZ ONCE IT'S REVEALED THAT I'M TRYING TO HOLD DOWN A DOUBLE LIFE OF THE VULNERABLE YET DEMANDING
MY TRANSPARENCY WILL BE THE ONLY THING LEFT STANDING
THEN I WILL WEEP IN MY FOOLISHNESS AND REAP THE AFTERMATH OF YOU NOT LOVING ME DESPITE MY SHORTCOMINGS
SEE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I YEARN FOR THE RELEASE OF MY OWN EXPOSURE
FOR THE WALL TO CRUMBLE DOWN
THE BOUNDARY TO BE OVERSTEPPED
THE LIMITS TO BE PUSHED
AND I FEEL VICTORIOUS BECAUSE I SURPASS MISERY THROUGH DEFEAT
RECREATE ME
I'M SICK OF FEELING LONELY BECAUSE OF MY OWN INDECISIVE EMOTIONS
LEFT IN A DISPOSITION WHERE I DESIRE YOUR PRESENCE, YOU APPEAR, I PUSH YOU AWAY BUT MY HEART SCREAMS FOR YOU TO STAY
MY THOUGHTS ARE LIKE MY LADY DAYS,
FILLED WITH INCONSISTENCY AND LEAVING ME WITH AN UP-DOWN, LOVE-HATE RELATIONSHIP
LEAVING YOU STUCK IN THE DARK
I CAN'T HANDLE THIS
JUST LET ME REST MY HEAD IN YOUR SWEET AUTHORITY AND WE'LL TALK ABOUT IT LATER...

POEM #31

I OFTEN WONDER WHAT THE HEART OF GOD LOOKS LIKE
MAYBE HE HAS THAT HEART OF GOLD
OR MAYBE IT'S A COLOR YET TO BE ADMIRED
BY ANY HUMAN EYE
ALL I KNOW IS
I'M IN THERE
SOMEWHERE
AND THERE IS A SPACE FOR
EVERYONE
PAST, PRESENT, AND FUTURE
WHERE OUR RELATIONSHIPS WITH HIM
AWAITS
AND A MORE FULFILLING FUTURE
SITS IN ANTICIPATION
I FEEL
IT MUST NOT BE EASY HAVING A HEART
LIKE HIS
REGARDLESS OF SHAPE, FORM, OR FASHION
IT MUST BE DETRIMENTAL
BEARING THE GREIVIANCE
OF WHAT THIS WORLD
VICTIMIZES AND MANIPULATES
AND GOES ABOUT LIFE
AS IF THEIR LIVES
ARE THEIR OWN
I PONDER HOW HE GRIEF IS EXPRESSED
MAYBE THROUGH RAIN
HIS TEARS FROM HEAVEN
MUST MAKE THE RAIN FALL
AND THE MORE HE WEEPS
OCEANS ARE CONSUMED
BUT EVEN
IN THE MIDST OF STORMS
HE CALLS THEM TO CALM
OH WHAT A HEART
IT MUST TAKE
TO BE AS FORGIVING AS HE IS
EVEN IN THE MIDST
OF MY INSECURITIES
WANTS AND DESIRES
DOWNFALLS OR PITY PARTIES
LEAVING ME FEELING LIKE I'M WORTHLESS
ASSURES ME
THAT I'M
I'M WORTH IT
AND I WAS CREATED FOR
PURPOSE
I FIND MYSELF WONDERING
HOW PERFECT A LOVE MUST BE
TO GIVE A PERFECT SACRIFICE
FOR IMPERFECTION LIKE ME
I OFTEN WONDER HOW DEEP IS THE DEPTH OF GOD'S FORGIVENESS
TO THROW OUT MY SINS
AS FAR AS THE EAST IS FROM THE WEST
JUST HOW FAR IS THE EAST FROM THE WEST
NORTH FROM THE SOUTH
HOW DOES ONE CARE THAT MUCH
I WONDER
WHY DOES HE LOVE ME ANYWAY?
WHY INVEST TIME IN SOMEONE
WHO DOESN'T COMPLETELY PUT HIM FIRST
LIKE I SHOULD
WHY ME???
I THINK ABOUT THE CROSS
THINK ABOUT THE COST
PICTURING HIS NAIL PIERCED HANDS
AND REMEMBERING THE BLOOD SHED
JUST FOR ME
THOUGH
I FEEL SO WORTHLESS
HE REMINDS ME
THAT I'M WORTH IT
AND I WAS CREATED FOR
PURPOSE
FORGIVES AND TAKES ME
FOR WHO I AM
I WONDER
WHAT THE VOICE OF GOD IS LIKE
JUST HOW SWEET
HOW STILL
HOW NOTICABLE
THE DISTINCTION
JUST FOR ME
JUST FOR US
HOW HE KNOWS US SO WELL
TO SPEAK OUR LANGUAGE
THERE ARE SO MANY LANGUAGES
AND SEND COMFORT
OH HOW COMFORT IS A DESPERATION
WHEREVER THERE IS A NEED
FOR ONE TO MEET THE NEEDS
HE MEETS THOSE NEED
AND ONLY REQUIRES
SIMPLE OBEDIENCE
AND A HEART FOR HIM
I THINK ABOUT
WHAT THE FRIENDSHIP OF GOD IS LIKE
WHY BEFRIEND
SOMEONE LIKE ME?
TELL ME THE TRUTH
CORRECT ME
AND BLESS ME
ALL AT THE SAME TIME
AND TELLS ME I CAN PUT
MY TRUST IN HIM
AND CAST ALL MY CARES
UPON HIM
BECAUSE HE CARES THAT MUCH
FOR ME
AND EVEN WHEN I BETRAY HIM
AND PLAY TAG WITH THE WORLD
LEAVE HIS SIDE
HIDE MYSELF FROM
HIS TRUTH HIS WORD
UNTIL I'M DYING ON THE INSIDE
FROM LACK OF SPIRITUAL FEEDING
LEAVING ME WITH A FEELING
LIKE I'M WORTHLESS
BUT YOU HOLD ME
WHILE I'M YET
AT YOUR FEET LORD
CRYING
HEAD DOWN
IN SHAME
YOU LIFT MY HEAD
AND REMIND ME
THAT I'M WORTH IT
AND TO KEEP MY EYES
FIXED ON THE PROMISES
WITH MY NAME ON THEM
AND THAT YOU LOVE ME
OH WHAT A LOVE IS THIS
A LOVE
THAT IS
EVERLASTING
EVER-KNOWING
EVER-SHOWING
AND HELPS ME
TO BE
EVER-GROWING
I NOW WONDER
IF I LOOK ANYTHING LIKE HIM
IF MY LIGHT HAS DIMMED
IF MY HEART WEEPS LIKE HIS
IF MY FRIENDSHIP CAN EVEN COMPARE
IF THE LOVE I GIVE IS PURE
HE KNOWS
HE LOVES
HE CARES
FOR ME
TO BE A PRESENT HELP
EVEN AS THIS IS BEING WRITTEN
OH WHAT A HEART...

POEM #34

ON A RAINY DAY
SUCH AS THIS
I OFTEN FIND MYSELF
WANTING
TO SNAPSHOT YOUR EXISTENCE
AND UNVEIL
A FOREVER KNOWN TREASURE
IN MY HEART
I SIT HERE
WITH MY UMBRELLA
AGAINST THE LIGHTPOST
SO THAT I MAY
FEEL THE SONG
OF THE RAIN
TRICKLING DOWN
FORMING AN ARCH
OF MELODIES
AND HARMONIZE
A KEEPSAKE MEMOIR
FROM LONG AGO
WRITING THE FUTURE
FROM FORMER AFFAIRS
AND SOON
MY EYES
THEY DO BEGIN TO CRY OUT
A SONG
A LOVE SONG
SO SOFT
AND DEAR AS
IF BIRTHED BY THE CLOUDS
AND AN INVITATION
IS BESTOWED UNTO ME
FOR SUCH A TIME AS THIS
GAZING
AS THE STARS
FIND WRATH
IN THE BENEVOLENCE
OF EVERY DROP
THE ESSENCE OF THEIR
LIQUID SPLENDOR
AND ALL THEY DO POSSESS
THAT FALL
IN HOPES OF
ONE DAY
GRACEFULLY LANDING
ON GRAVITY'S FOOTSTOOL
AND RELEASING THEIR THANKS
FOR A TIME WELL SPENT
BEFORE THEY RETURN
TO ADD HOPE
TO A DRY EXISTENCE
IT IS HERE
HERE
NOW
IN THIS MOMENT
THAT I ALLOW MYSELF
TO RELEASE ALL INHIBITIONS
THROUGH MY PEN
AND ORCHESTRATE
THE SYMPHONY OF LIFE
FROM ALL I SEE ABOUT ME
WITH MY HEART ON MY SLEEVE
AS I WITNESS
THE PASSERSBYS
AND NOTICE HOW THEIR MOODS
COINCIDE
WITH EVERY CHANGE IN MOVEMENT
FROM MY PEN
EVEN THEIR STRIDES
MAKE DIFFERENT BEATS
BUT ARE YET IN STILL
ON ONE ACCORD
IN ALL THIS WONDER
I LOOK FOR YOU STILL
INTRIGUING MYSELF
WITH THOUGHTS THAT
MAYBE YOU WILL APPEAR
AND MAKE YOURSELF
KNOWN TO ME
IN THE RELEASE
OF A STANDING OVATION
SO ON THIS BENCH OF DELIGHT
I SIT IN ANTICIPATION
AND CONTINUE TO PLAY
UNTIL YOUR ARRIVAL
YET IN THE MEANTIME
THE SHOW MUST GO ON...