Sunday, April 25, 2010

POEM #31


I OFTEN WONDER WHAT THE HEART OF GOD LOOKS LIKE
MAYBE HE HAS THAT HEART OF GOLD

OR MAYBE IT'S A COLOR YET TO BE ADMIRED

BY ANY HUMAN EYE

ALL I KNOW IS

I'M IN THERE

SOMEWHERE

AND THERE IS A SPACE FOR

EVERYONE

PAST, PRESENT, AND FUTURE
WHERE OUR RELATIONSHIPS WITH HIM

AWAITS
AND A MORE FULFILLING FUTURE
SITS IN ANTICIPATION
I FEEL

IT MUST NOT BE EASY HAVING A HEART

LIKE HIS

REGARDLESS OF SHAPE, FORM, OR FASHION
IT MUST BE DETRIMENTAL

BEARING THE GREIVIANCE
OF WHAT THIS WORLD
VICTIMIZES AND MANIPULATES
AND GOES ABOUT LIFE

AS IF THEIR LIVES

ARE THEIR OWN

I PONDER HOW HE GRIEF IS EXPRESSED

MAYBE THROUGH RAIN

HIS TEARS FROM HEAVEN

MUST MAKE THE RAIN FALL

AND THE MORE HE WEEPS

OCEANS ARE CONSUMED

BUT EVEN
IN THE MIDST OF STORMS
HE CALLS THEM TO CALM

OH WHAT A HEART

IT MUST TAKE
TO BE AS FORGIVING AS HE IS

EVEN IN THE MIDST
OF MY INSECURITIES
WANTS AND DESIRES

DOWNFALLS
OR PITY PARTIES
LEAVING ME FEELING
LIKE I'M WORTHLESS
ASSURES ME
THAT I'M

I'M WORTH IT

AND I WAS CREATED FOR

PURPOSE

I FIND MYSELF WONDERING

HOW PERFECT A LOVE MUST BE

TO GIVE A PERFECT SACRIFICE

FOR IMPERFECTION LIKE ME

I OFTEN WONDER HOW DEEP IS THE DEPTH OF GOD'S FORGIVENESS
TO THROW OUT MY SINS

AS FAR AS THE EAST IS FROM THE WEST

JUST HOW FAR IS THE EAST FROM THE WEST

NORTH FROM THE SOUTH

HOW DOES ONE CARE THAT MUCH

I WONDER
WHY DOES HE LOVE ME ANYWAY?
WHY INVEST TIME IN SOMEONE
WHO DOESN'T COMPLETELY PUT HIM FIRST
LIKE I SHOULD
WHY ME???

I THINK ABOUT THE CROSS
THINK ABOUT THE COST

PICTURING HIS NAIL PIERCED HANDS

AND REMEMBERING THE BLOOD SHED

JUST FOR ME

THOUGH

I FEEL SO WORTHLESS

HE REMINDS ME
THAT I'M WORTH IT

AND I WAS CREATED FOR

PURPOSE

FORGIVES AND TAKES ME

FOR WHO I AM
I WONDER
WHAT THE VOICE OF GOD IS LIKE

JUST HOW SWEET

HOW STILL

HOW NOTICABLE
THE DISTINCTION

JUST FOR ME

JUST FOR US

HOW HE KNOWS US SO WELL

TO SPEAK OUR LANGUAGE

THERE ARE SO MANY LANGUAGES

AND SEND COMFORT

OH HOW COMFORT IS A DESPERATION

WHEREVER THERE IS A NEED

FOR ONE TO MEET THE NEEDS
HE MEETS THOSE NEED
AND ONLY REQUIRES

SIMPLE OBEDIENCE

AND A HEART FOR HIM
I THINK ABOUT

WHAT THE FRIENDSHIP OF GOD IS LIKE

WHY BEFRIEND

SOMEONE LIKE ME?

TELL ME THE TRUTH

CORRECT ME

AND BLESS ME

ALL AT THE SAME TIME

AND TELLS ME I CAN PUT

MY TRUST IN HIM

AND CAST ALL MY CARES

UPON HIM
BECAUSE HE CARES THAT MUCH

FOR ME
AND EVEN WHEN I BETRAY HIM

AND PLAY TAG WITH THE WORLD

LEAVE HIS SIDE

HIDE MYSELF FROM
HIS TRUTH
HIS WORD
UNTIL I'M DYING ON THE INSIDE

FROM LACK OF SPIRITUAL FEEDING

LEAVING ME WITH A FEELING

LIKE I'M WORTHLESS

BUT YOU HOLD ME

WHILE I'M YET

AT YOUR FEET LORD

CRYING

HEAD DOWN

IN SHAME

YOU LIFT MY HEAD

AND REMIND ME

THAT I'M WORTH IT

AND TO KEEP MY EYES

FIXED ON THE PROMISES

WITH MY NAME ON THEM

AND THAT YOU LOVE ME

OH WHAT A LOVE IS THIS

A LOVE

THAT IS

EVERLASTING

EVER-KNOWING
EVER-SHOWING

AND HELPS ME

TO BE

EVER-GROWING

I NOW WONDER
IF I LOOK ANYTHING LIKE HIM
IF MY LIGHT HAS DIMMED

IF MY HEART WEEPS LIKE HIS
IF MY FRIENDSHIP CAN EVEN COMPARE

IF THE LOVE I GIVE IS PURE
HE KNOWS

HE LOVES
HE CARES

FOR ME

TO BE A PRESENT HELP

EVEN AS THIS IS BEING WRITTEN

OH WHAT A HEART...

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