POEM #8

THE NATURE OF MY SIMPLE OBSESSION IS FAR FROM THE IRRATIONAL IMMUNITY OF KNOWING I CAN MAKE YOU MINE AT THE BLINK OF AN EYE
MAYBE IT'S THE THOUGHT OF FAIR GAME
OR THE FEELING THAT YOU JUST WILL ONE DAY DISCOVER THE SECRET BEHIND MY DEVICES AND DECIDE NOT TO LET ME HAVE YOU
THAT MAKES ME GO DEEPER
YOUR VOICE MAKES ME WEAKER
AND I SINK INTO AN ABYSS OF EMOTION THAT I HAVE ALLOWED YOU TO CREATE FOR ME
YOUR ACTIONS WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER FEEL LIKE FRESH STRIPPED LACE ACROSS THE FACE OF MY LIPS
AND I BEGIN TO LET MY GUARD DOWN
AND WRAP YOU INTO ME
I'M LOSING FOCUS
THE BALL IS SUPPOSED TO BE IN MY COURT
AND SO IT BEGINS
I'M ELATED BY YOUR SMILE
I'M FADED BY YOUR TOUCH
AND YOUR KISS SENDS MY VERTEBRAE INTO A LOCOMOTION OF AN UNCHAINED MELODY
BUT I MUST REMAIN DOMINANT
I CAN'T LET YOU SEE MY TRUE FEELINGS
CUZ ONCE IT'S REVEALED THAT I'M TRYING TO HOLD DOWN A DOUBLE LIFE OF THE VULNERABLE YET DEMANDING
MY TRANSPARENCY WILL BE THE ONLY THING LEFT STANDING
THEN I WILL WEEP IN MY FOOLISHNESS AND REAP THE AFTERMATH OF YOU NOT LOVING ME DESPITE MY SHORTCOMINGS
SEE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I YEARN FOR THE RELEASE OF MY OWN EXPOSURE
FOR THE WALL TO CRUMBLE DOWN
THE BOUNDARY TO BE OVERSTEPPED
THE LIMITS TO BE PUSHED
AND I FEEL VICTORIOUS BECAUSE I SURPASS MISERY THROUGH DEFEAT
RECREATE ME
I'M SICK OF FEELING LONELY BECAUSE OF MY OWN INDECISIVE EMOTIONS
LEFT IN A DISPOSITION WHERE I DESIRE YOUR PRESENCE, YOU APPEAR, I PUSH YOU AWAY BUT MY HEART SCREAMS FOR YOU TO STAY
MY THOUGHTS ARE LIKE MY LADY DAYS,
FILLED WITH INCONSISTENCY AND LEAVING ME WITH AN UP-DOWN, LOVE-HATE RELATIONSHIP
LEAVING YOU STUCK IN THE DARK
I CAN'T HANDLE THIS
JUST LET ME REST MY HEAD IN YOUR SWEET AUTHORITY AND WE'LL TALK ABOUT IT LATER...