POEM #10

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HAVE YOU EVER SET SAIL ON SUMMER RAIN?
WELL I HAVE
AND I BROUGHT ALONG MY JOURNAL
AND A NET TO CATCH THE THOUGHTS THAT ESCAPE MY PEN
SO I COULD COLLECTIVELY GET MYSELF IN LINE
FOR WHEN I HAD TO TELL YOU MY TRUE FEELINGS
AND LIKE THE SEASONS
A CHANGE OCCURRED
I LEAPED FROM MY JUNK BOAT OF DREAMS
AND DECIDED TO FLOAT ACROSS THE LEAVES AS THEY CHANGED COLOR
AND WHILE STILL WRITING
I INHALED THE CRISP AIR AND THE SNOWFLAKES DANCED AROUND ME
AND PLANTED THE SEEDS OF WILDFLOWERS ALONG THE RIVERBANK
SO I CLOSED MY EYES AND IMITATED BEETHOVEN
HEARING WITHOUT THE KEEN SENSE OF HEARING
BUT RATHER WRITING A MASTERPIECE WITH MY HEART
THAT EVEN MY THOUGHTS COULDN'T COMPREHEND
IN MY JOURNAL ARE THE PERFECT PHRASES
BUT I WONDER WHAT THEY ARE REALLY SAYING IN MY UNCONSCIOUS
SO LIKE A DARING SOUL I DECIDED EXPLORE
AND FOUND THE TRUTH BEHIND MY FEELINGS
AND IN MY MOMENT OF A FREUDIAN SLIP
MY TRUE FEELINGS ESCAPED ME
AND MY NET WAS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND
DARN
AND THERE YOU WERE ACROSS FROM ME IN MY BOAT
AND RECEIVED EVERY WORD WITH A SILENT SMILE
PLANTING A KISS ON MY FOREHEAD
GRACING MY HAND WITH A NOTE OF THANKS
FOR MY HEART WRITING YOUR EXISTENCE IN THIS TIME
TO SHARE WITH THIS BEAUTIFUL MOMENT
YOU'RE WELCOME

POEM #8

THE NATURE OF MY SIMPLE OBSESSION IS FAR FROM THE IRRATIONAL IMMUNITY OF KNOWING I CAN MAKE YOU MINE AT THE BLINK OF AN EYE
MAYBE IT'S THE THOUGHT OF FAIR GAME
OR THE FEELING THAT YOU JUST WILL ONE DAY DISCOVER THE SECRET BEHIND MY DEVICES AND DECIDE NOT TO LET ME HAVE YOU
THAT MAKES ME GO DEEPER
YOUR VOICE MAKES ME WEAKER
AND I SINK INTO AN ABYSS OF EMOTION THAT I HAVE ALLOWED YOU TO CREATE FOR ME
YOUR ACTIONS WHEN WE ARE TOGETHER FEEL LIKE FRESH STRIPPED LACE ACROSS THE FACE OF MY LIPS
AND I BEGIN TO LET MY GUARD DOWN
AND WRAP YOU INTO ME
I'M LOSING FOCUS
THE BALL IS SUPPOSED TO BE IN MY COURT
AND SO IT BEGINS
I'M ELATED BY YOUR SMILE
I'M FADED BY YOUR TOUCH
AND YOUR KISS SENDS MY VERTEBRAE INTO A LOCOMOTION OF AN UNCHAINED MELODY
BUT I MUST REMAIN DOMINANT
I CAN'T LET YOU SEE MY TRUE FEELINGS
CUZ ONCE IT'S REVEALED THAT I'M TRYING TO HOLD DOWN A DOUBLE LIFE OF THE VULNERABLE YET DEMANDING
MY TRANSPARENCY WILL BE THE ONLY THING LEFT STANDING
THEN I WILL WEEP IN MY FOOLISHNESS AND REAP THE AFTERMATH OF YOU NOT LOVING ME DESPITE MY SHORTCOMINGS
SEE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I YEARN FOR THE RELEASE OF MY OWN EXPOSURE
FOR THE WALL TO CRUMBLE DOWN
THE BOUNDARY TO BE OVERSTEPPED
THE LIMITS TO BE PUSHED
AND I FEEL VICTORIOUS BECAUSE I SURPASS MISERY THROUGH DEFEAT
RECREATE ME
I'M SICK OF FEELING LONELY BECAUSE OF MY OWN INDECISIVE EMOTIONS
LEFT IN A DISPOSITION WHERE I DESIRE YOUR PRESENCE, YOU APPEAR, I PUSH YOU AWAY BUT MY HEART SCREAMS FOR YOU TO STAY
MY THOUGHTS ARE LIKE MY LADY DAYS,
FILLED WITH INCONSISTENCY AND LEAVING ME WITH AN UP-DOWN, LOVE-HATE RELATIONSHIP
LEAVING YOU STUCK IN THE DARK
I CAN'T HANDLE THIS
JUST LET ME REST MY HEAD IN YOUR SWEET AUTHORITY AND WE'LL TALK ABOUT IT LATER...

POEM #31

I OFTEN WONDER WHAT THE HEART OF GOD LOOKS LIKE
MAYBE HE HAS THAT HEART OF GOLD
OR MAYBE IT'S A COLOR YET TO BE ADMIRED
BY ANY HUMAN EYE
ALL I KNOW IS
I'M IN THERE
SOMEWHERE
AND THERE IS A SPACE FOR
EVERYONE
PAST, PRESENT, AND FUTURE
WHERE OUR RELATIONSHIPS WITH HIM
AWAITS
AND A MORE FULFILLING FUTURE
SITS IN ANTICIPATION
I FEEL
IT MUST NOT BE EASY HAVING A HEART
LIKE HIS
REGARDLESS OF SHAPE, FORM, OR FASHION
IT MUST BE DETRIMENTAL
BEARING THE GREIVIANCE
OF WHAT THIS WORLD
VICTIMIZES AND MANIPULATES
AND GOES ABOUT LIFE
AS IF THEIR LIVES
ARE THEIR OWN
I PONDER HOW HE GRIEF IS EXPRESSED
MAYBE THROUGH RAIN
HIS TEARS FROM HEAVEN
MUST MAKE THE RAIN FALL
AND THE MORE HE WEEPS
OCEANS ARE CONSUMED
BUT EVEN
IN THE MIDST OF STORMS
HE CALLS THEM TO CALM
OH WHAT A HEART
IT MUST TAKE
TO BE AS FORGIVING AS HE IS
EVEN IN THE MIDST
OF MY INSECURITIES
WANTS AND DESIRES
DOWNFALLS OR PITY PARTIES
LEAVING ME FEELING LIKE I'M WORTHLESS
ASSURES ME
THAT I'M
I'M WORTH IT
AND I WAS CREATED FOR
PURPOSE
I FIND MYSELF WONDERING
HOW PERFECT A LOVE MUST BE
TO GIVE A PERFECT SACRIFICE
FOR IMPERFECTION LIKE ME
I OFTEN WONDER HOW DEEP IS THE DEPTH OF GOD'S FORGIVENESS
TO THROW OUT MY SINS
AS FAR AS THE EAST IS FROM THE WEST
JUST HOW FAR IS THE EAST FROM THE WEST
NORTH FROM THE SOUTH
HOW DOES ONE CARE THAT MUCH
I WONDER
WHY DOES HE LOVE ME ANYWAY?
WHY INVEST TIME IN SOMEONE
WHO DOESN'T COMPLETELY PUT HIM FIRST
LIKE I SHOULD
WHY ME???
I THINK ABOUT THE CROSS
THINK ABOUT THE COST
PICTURING HIS NAIL PIERCED HANDS
AND REMEMBERING THE BLOOD SHED
JUST FOR ME
THOUGH
I FEEL SO WORTHLESS
HE REMINDS ME
THAT I'M WORTH IT
AND I WAS CREATED FOR
PURPOSE
FORGIVES AND TAKES ME
FOR WHO I AM
I WONDER
WHAT THE VOICE OF GOD IS LIKE
JUST HOW SWEET
HOW STILL
HOW NOTICABLE
THE DISTINCTION
JUST FOR ME
JUST FOR US
HOW HE KNOWS US SO WELL
TO SPEAK OUR LANGUAGE
THERE ARE SO MANY LANGUAGES
AND SEND COMFORT
OH HOW COMFORT IS A DESPERATION
WHEREVER THERE IS A NEED
FOR ONE TO MEET THE NEEDS
HE MEETS THOSE NEED
AND ONLY REQUIRES
SIMPLE OBEDIENCE
AND A HEART FOR HIM
I THINK ABOUT
WHAT THE FRIENDSHIP OF GOD IS LIKE
WHY BEFRIEND
SOMEONE LIKE ME?
TELL ME THE TRUTH
CORRECT ME
AND BLESS ME
ALL AT THE SAME TIME
AND TELLS ME I CAN PUT
MY TRUST IN HIM
AND CAST ALL MY CARES
UPON HIM
BECAUSE HE CARES THAT MUCH
FOR ME
AND EVEN WHEN I BETRAY HIM
AND PLAY TAG WITH THE WORLD
LEAVE HIS SIDE
HIDE MYSELF FROM
HIS TRUTH HIS WORD
UNTIL I'M DYING ON THE INSIDE
FROM LACK OF SPIRITUAL FEEDING
LEAVING ME WITH A FEELING
LIKE I'M WORTHLESS
BUT YOU HOLD ME
WHILE I'M YET
AT YOUR FEET LORD
CRYING
HEAD DOWN
IN SHAME
YOU LIFT MY HEAD
AND REMIND ME
THAT I'M WORTH IT
AND TO KEEP MY EYES
FIXED ON THE PROMISES
WITH MY NAME ON THEM
AND THAT YOU LOVE ME
OH WHAT A LOVE IS THIS
A LOVE
THAT IS
EVERLASTING
EVER-KNOWING
EVER-SHOWING
AND HELPS ME
TO BE
EVER-GROWING
I NOW WONDER
IF I LOOK ANYTHING LIKE HIM
IF MY LIGHT HAS DIMMED
IF MY HEART WEEPS LIKE HIS
IF MY FRIENDSHIP CAN EVEN COMPARE
IF THE LOVE I GIVE IS PURE
HE KNOWS
HE LOVES
HE CARES
FOR ME
TO BE A PRESENT HELP
EVEN AS THIS IS BEING WRITTEN
OH WHAT A HEART...

POEM #34

ON A RAINY DAY
SUCH AS THIS
I OFTEN FIND MYSELF
WANTING
TO SNAPSHOT YOUR EXISTENCE
AND UNVEIL
A FOREVER KNOWN TREASURE
IN MY HEART
I SIT HERE
WITH MY UMBRELLA
AGAINST THE LIGHTPOST
SO THAT I MAY
FEEL THE SONG
OF THE RAIN
TRICKLING DOWN
FORMING AN ARCH
OF MELODIES
AND HARMONIZE
A KEEPSAKE MEMOIR
FROM LONG AGO
WRITING THE FUTURE
FROM FORMER AFFAIRS
AND SOON
MY EYES
THEY DO BEGIN TO CRY OUT
A SONG
A LOVE SONG
SO SOFT
AND DEAR AS
IF BIRTHED BY THE CLOUDS
AND AN INVITATION
IS BESTOWED UNTO ME
FOR SUCH A TIME AS THIS
GAZING
AS THE STARS
FIND WRATH
IN THE BENEVOLENCE
OF EVERY DROP
THE ESSENCE OF THEIR
LIQUID SPLENDOR
AND ALL THEY DO POSSESS
THAT FALL
IN HOPES OF
ONE DAY
GRACEFULLY LANDING
ON GRAVITY'S FOOTSTOOL
AND RELEASING THEIR THANKS
FOR A TIME WELL SPENT
BEFORE THEY RETURN
TO ADD HOPE
TO A DRY EXISTENCE
IT IS HERE
HERE
NOW
IN THIS MOMENT
THAT I ALLOW MYSELF
TO RELEASE ALL INHIBITIONS
THROUGH MY PEN
AND ORCHESTRATE
THE SYMPHONY OF LIFE
FROM ALL I SEE ABOUT ME
WITH MY HEART ON MY SLEEVE
AS I WITNESS
THE PASSERSBYS
AND NOTICE HOW THEIR MOODS
COINCIDE
WITH EVERY CHANGE IN MOVEMENT
FROM MY PEN
EVEN THEIR STRIDES
MAKE DIFFERENT BEATS
BUT ARE YET IN STILL
ON ONE ACCORD
IN ALL THIS WONDER
I LOOK FOR YOU STILL
INTRIGUING MYSELF
WITH THOUGHTS THAT
MAYBE YOU WILL APPEAR
AND MAKE YOURSELF
KNOWN TO ME
IN THE RELEASE
OF A STANDING OVATION
SO ON THIS BENCH OF DELIGHT
I SIT IN ANTICIPATION
AND CONTINUE TO PLAY
UNTIL YOUR ARRIVAL
YET IN THE MEANTIME
THE SHOW MUST GO ON...

One of my FAVS...

Friends, I remember writing this at like 4am and feeling so AWESOME after getting it out! I love it and I think you will too...Enjoy :)

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There's a newness in my soul
A rebirth of thought that is infiltrating deep
Into the taste of creativity that is quite refreshing
Quenching the very thirst in my heart
For the perfect words
Or whimsical phrase
To break free out of my membrane
And debut out of my speakerbox
Commanding the ear of the world
With a peaceful sound
There's a newness
A fulfillment of some sort
In the place of the lack there of
Overflowing with serenity
And preserving a secret place
For a peace of mind
Leaving me with a cool like that reaction
But inside a flame of curiosity
Ignites a desire for more
And feet embossed in determination
Guides me into this new era of thought
As I run with expectancy
Boldly jump in head first
And grieve of you not being here to take in this freedom
So we could share in this newness
Feeling so light
The weight of the world being off our shoulders
We begin to dance around the fire like the tribes before us
As a prayer for the rain
And bowing down before the throne
As an apology
For our wishful thinking being so futile
Believing that this state of being was
Was never tangible
Until now
There's a newness
The heartaches from heartbreaks
Have finally gone to rest in peace
And now a more grounded emotional foundation is paved
With sowed seeds of love
Rekindling hearts and stimulating minds
Allowing actions to speak louder than words
So as simple as a kiss to the sky
I present dissertation
In appreciation to God himself
As a result of the newness
Of a day yet to be discovered

Free Write...

INSPIRATION
WORDS LIKE SUMMER RAIN
EVERY DROP IS LIKE GLAD FEELS SENSATION
AND I FEEL FREE TO LOSE MYSELF
IN MY IMAGINATION
RESCUING ME OUT OF BONDAGE
LIKE THE EMANCIPATION PROCLAMATION
AND TODAY
I PROCLAIM
JOY IN MY SPIRIT
OVERFLOWING
I'M AT PEACE
AND FULLY KNOWING
THAT I CAN FEEL IT
AND YES
IT IS SHOWING
THIS MOMENT IS SHARED NOT ALONE
HE SOUGHT MY KEYS
AND MATCHED MY TONE
NOW I'M ENTHRONED
HE IS THE BEAT TO MY LYRIC
THE SEAM IN MY TAPESTRY
THE STARSHINE IN MY HEART
THE KNIGHT INMY MAJESTY
THE FLOW OF ATTRACTION
ALL BEGAN WITH TWO SIMPLE WORDS
NATURAL CHEMISTRY
NOW I'M DELIGHTING IN A COOL BREEZE
EVERY TOUCH FROM THE WIND PUTS ME AT EASE
FEELS NICE TO BREATHE
I'M BACK TO ME
STRATEGICALLY PLANTING MYSELF
IN ANOTHER MYSTERY
BEARING THE SECRETS
OF MY SOUL
IN THE MIND OF WHO YOU ARE TO ME
HAPPINESS IS THE NEW FRAME OF MIND
PLAYING WITH SUN RAYS
IN THE MOONLIGHT
EXUBERATING A NEW PARADIGM
FINDING BEAUTY IN MY LIFE LINE
SO I WON'T HAVE TO WAIT MY WHOLE LIFETIME
FOR A SIMPLE PIECE OF YOURS TO MINE
THIS MOMENT IS FINE
ELEVATION

There is PEACE in God :)

Sometime when I'm writing, I try to visualize what I'm saying so it's like bringing my words to life...come, and take this journey with me in this piece...Enjoy :)

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walked along this path today
trailing my thoughts behind me
had thinks to tie my ambitions to some branches
pour out my tomorrow to the leaves
and bury my yesterday with the root
I saw a lily blossoming out of the heart of the sun
and its splendor poured out like drops of rain
every single drop
a memory
made into a song
just for me
a song so beautiful
i wept until my soul overflowed
wept until my spirit filled the foundation of the earth
and as i looked around
I saw a gate in the distance
leading to Heaven
and thought of how wonderful
it would be to end my journey
on this path
there
to sit about the angels
and sing about the glory of God
how He established me on this path
from the womb of maternal loins
and met me at the gate
and for the first time
turned me around
so that I could take in my life
and view it in the turn of the seasons
but
this is all in distance
and as long as I remain
on this path
I shall see that expected end
I look off to see those
I have encountered
those on the left
those on the right
realizing that it's just me
me on this path
for it's only one
that can go in such a way
this is my way
this is my path
this is my life...